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2004-10-16 blood..>Bloggy~ i went 2 sch for hairstyling 2day. But jonathan was late, so mi and stella went 2 mobil 2 have breakfast. I was paying for my curry puff when i saw Gilbert cuming. I dunno how 2 react. So i just stared blankly. We so call quarrelled de day before. I was pissed off with all that "ya ya ya ya ya" after i talked so much. i know i was very inconsiderate. So i asked him wad was wrong wif him and y aren't he toking. he was saying, "no lah... nothing." i really wasn't in a good mood at tt time. IN fact, de anger inside mi is already wanting 2 burst liao. And i hate tt, "no lah. nthing" bu ur actin show otherwise thingy. So i got damn pissed off tt i told him i promise nv to tok abt my problems ever again.
I saw him 2day and i didn't know wad 2 say. I wanted 2 say hi but another part of mi ask mi nt to. I wanted 2 run over and hugged him and say i'm sorry but i dun dare 2. I feel so hopeless. Fark.. y am i so hopeless. He is right, bloggy. We are only known by names. We aren't compatible 2 b brother and sister at all. I want a kinship which is two way love. not only one way. He dun allow mi 2 show tt i care. Each time i ask him wad's wrong, he dun wanna tell mi. den wad is tis friendship for? I dun like 2 owe anyone anything. I hate owing. cos i know, i'll nv be able 2 repay back. NOw u know y i prefer 2 b alone than calling other ppl??
I just made matter worse earlier on. Chenghui bro actually wanted 2 pull mi and gilbert back 2gether. Just when i wanted 2 tok and apologise, gilbert pulled grace (his fren) in to tok. nt tt i wanna offend anyone or what.. nt tt i'm nt happy grace came in de chat room or anything, just tt... if he truly wanna tok abt our problems, y wanna ask someone 2 tok for him?? y wanna treat as if he doesn't even bother??? u get my idea, bloggy? why everytime WHEN I WANNA PATCH THINGS UP, DE OTHER PARTY JUST DO THIS TO ME!!!!!!!
I'm having a hard time at home too. Quarrelled wif my mother. Earlier in de taxi going back home wif mama, papa and bro. Bro sat in front while all three of us sat at the back. Mom began doing some disgusting thing and i began to sigh very loud 2 tell her 2 stop it. Bro looked back and said, "ma, can you stop doing those disgusting thing." den dad began scolding my bro... mom faced mi... and said.. "u happy already?? everytime ur fault." i cried...
tt reminds mi of when i was in sec 4. Bro and i wasn't in good terms. He shouted at mi for not studying science as i was practicing math. Mom and dad came in when bro. threaten 2 slap mi. it was mom who wanted mi 2 practice math. When bro going 2 slap mi, dad grabbed him and both of them began 2 struggle with each other. Dad have high blood pressure. i was so afraid tt i cried. Mom began to scream at mi.. "ALL UR FAULT.. U HAPPY ALREADY??" i went into a depression state...
bloggy.. i'm so afraid.. i'm going into depression soon...
i'm sorry gilbert... i'm sorry tt our bro-sis relationship ended tis way. I wish 2 tell u tt u've been a very good bro. towards mi. It was i who spoilt everything. U r just too good 2 mi. HOpe u'll b able 2 find an ideal sis. I'm nt de one. Take care ya...
bloggy.. endless tears just kept flowing down... even dad oso say i'm beginning 2 look more and more paler and skinnier n that my gastric prob is cuming again...
i feel like slitting my wrist... i feel must better slitting it.. seeing de blood.. i'll feel better.. becos i'll treat de pain as my punishment... i wanna c my blood...
~LiLi~
Name:Lau Li Li
Age:18+
Sex:Female
Schools:Fuhua Pri., Keming Pri.,Zhenghua Sec., Republic Polytechnic
Work:Part-Time Modelling & Actress, Tutor
Wants:Pursue my studies on Law and if possible, Full-time for my Part-time works
~Her Favorites~
1.Coconut juice *i simply can't do without it*
2.Greentea POLKA *The Alternate*
3.Chrysanthemum *The Second Alternate*
4.Instant noodles *The unresistable*
5.Beach *The Quiet Corner*
6.IT Security Management & Networking *Pls grant mi As*
--> MicroEconomics *Pls grant mi MORE As*
7.Sammi Chueng, Yang Qian Hua, Zhou Xing Chi, Daniel Wu, She Shi Man *The Must WATCH movies*
8.Home-Cooked Food *Foods which i'll nv get bored of*
9.'Can you keep a secret?', 'The Make Up Girl', 'The Undomestic Goddess', 'The Shopaholic' *Books i can't do without*
10.Reality Shows *The only times which i can see ppl make a fool out of themselves other than myself.*
~Loves~
1.My Family *The Never Ending Support*
2.My Buddies & Friends *The Never Ending Laughters*
3.My Hubby *The Never Ending Love,Care and quarrels*
4.Music *My Life*
5.Acting *Pastime*
6.Being Crazy *The only times which i am not angry*
7.Typing *The only thing i am fast in*
8.Singing *The only time your voice is louder than your parents's
9.Movies *Watch ppl nag,quarrel,trick etc at other ppl for once rather than i'm the victim every other times*
10.Sleeping *The only time i can rest*
~Loathes~
1.Angry ppl
2.Cruel ppl
3.Temperamental ppl
4.Stubborn ppl
5.Hypocrites
6.Attitude ppl
7.Tiko ppl
8.Bossy ppl
9.Lazy ppl
10.Papaya!
11.Backstabbers
~WishList~
1.Get As for results
2.Happy And Peaceful world
3.Friends to be happy
4.Happy Family
5.Happy Me
6.Happy Facilitators so i'll have good daily grades
7.Happy Hubby
8.Good establish career
9.Good future
10.Great Life
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