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I'm back, with more bad news. Can someone pls answer me this extremely difficult question? It seriously worth like one million dollar. It is indeed a one million dollar question.
Am i a bitch?
No, seriously. I'm not kidding. i'm beginning to feel that i'm a bitch. The more i think through the way i do things, the way i feel, i feel that i'm a bitch. I realize that whatever i do, it's wrong. But i can't help doing the wrong things. The previous entry seriously is bitchy, really, dun have to console mi or whatever. it is indeed bitchy. Really. Even oneof my classmate agreed wif mi that i'm seriously "jian" lohs. No kidding. He says that i'm petty and that i'm being toosensitive. Maybe so. I think all of you think that i'm petty too. SEE! i told you. There's this person in class makes me feel that i'm so extra, so boring etc. I realized all my humor is equal to zero. I've absolutely no talents at all. I'm friendly? Ha! I think i'm kidding myself. Now, i'm beginning to think that i'm a extremely boring person. I seriously have zero jokes in me, i seriously have no talents in being a comedian at me at all. And everyone have to agree, being humorous is one of the major key component in making frens. Now, all i can crack is some serious lame jokes. Serious is ok, but lame?I used to be so popular back in pri. sch, in sec sch, now, i felt so left out. I seldom "pon" sch during sec sch. But now, i feel like hiding at home under the blankets n bluff myself that an major earthquake have occured in Singapore. Now, i feel that i'm just a spare tyre in class. When the person is not there, the guys would be like talking and joking to me. But if the person is there, they'd totally ignore mi lohs. I swear that this is what it seems. If you were there, u'll realize too. That is if you aren't one of those guys in my class. All of them says that the person is OK and that he/she is friendly.. See... if there's nothing wrong wif them, surely there's something wrong wif mi, rite. One of them says that, "it is not that we dun wanna invite you, for me lah, i just assume that you wanna makan wif your bf cos you always do so." But have youever TRIED asking me? No. not even once. And you are like making an assumption out of nothing? Do you even like KNOW whether did i eat wif him? Don't they know sometimes i would be in class and doing my work? Don't they realize what they are doing? Ok lah.. fine.. something bloody is wrong wif mi.. really. I hate that person. It's either i hate that person or i hate the guys. Maybe both. Now i'm beginning to hate most of the ppl living in earth.
Esp those FARKING AUNTIES WHO AIM ON MARRIED MEN. can't you get your PEA BRAINS AND FILTHY HANDS OFF AND STICK THEM UP WIF THE DUMPSTERS!? you DAMN HORNY ISSIT! You horny den go b prostitute la! Dun go ruining ppl's family ok! You think you are bloody hell sexy and gorgeous, LOOK IN THE MIRROR and see whether does the mirror CRACK IN FRONT OF YOU!
i miss those times in sec sch n 1st yr in RP when i'm still popular. AT LEAST IN CLASS~! not those u happy den tok wifmi, not happy den tok 2 someone else. Last time, when i'm in a baddie in sec sch, AT LEAST THE TEACHER NOTICE MI LOH! even when i'm punished outside class, the normal tech ppl etc would come CHAT WIF MI LOH! When i dun come to sch, someone would help mi collect my homework. When i need help, no matter if i turn right, left, front, behind, SOMEONE would be helping mi! Now? WHo can i turn to in class? WHAT? DUST AR! MOLECULES?!? NOw, i dun even dare to tell anyone my problems. Ppl would think i'm psychotic. That i'm crazy. That i'm petty. THat i'm bitchy. That i'm stupid. whatever names you can think of, it is all in me.
I think that everyone is out to get me.. I think that they wan something from me. But what.. If not, they wouldn't be treating me this way.. there is something really wrong. Something is wrong.. Now, i dun even wanna talk 2 xiaohsin. I know, i'm damn farking bitchy.. but i dun wanna hurt him. So i keep quiet. Or i just kept doing something else. i feel so sorry for him. I have to do something... Something is wrong... I can feel this endless anger within me. THere is something living inside me. THere is this fire waiting to explode.. It's just the matter of time... Now, every little thing can trigger this fire. Now.. where should i start... There better not be a penknife in sight of me now.. i'm so bloody eager 2 see blood... a pen can work well too.. see.. so pretty. :D
P.S. IF THOSE PPL WHO ARE READING THIS ARE NOT HAPPY AT ME, DEN COME FIND ME. I'M NOT FARKINGAFRAID OF YOU.
Name:Lau Li Li
Age:18+
Sex:Female
Schools:Fuhua Pri., Keming Pri.,Zhenghua Sec., Republic Polytechnic
Work:Part-Time Modelling & Actress, Tutor
Wants:Pursue my studies on Law and if possible, Full-time for my Part-time works 1.Coconut juice *i simply can't do without it* 2.Greentea POLKA *The Alternate* 3.Chrysanthemum *The Second Alternate* 4.Instant noodles *The unresistable* 5.Beach *The Quiet Corner* 6.IT Security Management & Networking *Pls grant mi As* --> MicroEconomics *Pls grant mi MORE As* 7.Sammi Chueng, Yang Qian Hua, Zhou Xing Chi, Daniel Wu, She Shi Man *The Must WATCH movies* 8.Home-Cooked Food *Foods which i'll nv get bored of* 9.'Can you keep a secret?', 'The Make Up Girl', 'The Undomestic Goddess', 'The Shopaholic' *Books i can't do without* 10.Reality Shows *The only times which i can see ppl make a fool out of themselves other than myself.* 1.My Family *The Never Ending Support* 2.My Buddies & Friends *The Never Ending Laughters* 3.My Hubby *The Never Ending Love,Care and quarrels* 4.Music *My Life* 5.Acting *Pastime* 6.Being Crazy *The only times which i am not angry* 7.Typing *The only thing i am fast in* 8.Singing *The only time your voice is louder than your parents's 9.Movies *Watch ppl nag,quarrel,trick etc at other ppl for once rather than i'm the victim every other times* 10.Sleeping *The only time i can rest* 1.Angry ppl 2.Cruel ppl 3.Temperamental ppl 4.Stubborn ppl 5.Hypocrites 6.Attitude ppl 7.Tiko ppl 8.Bossy ppl 9.Lazy ppl 10.Papaya! 11.Backstabbers 1.Get As for results 2.Happy And Peaceful world 3.Friends to be happy 4.Happy Family 5.Happy Me 6.Happy Facilitators so i'll have good daily grades 7.Happy Hubby 8.Good establish career 9.Good future 10.Great Life
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