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I seriously don't know who else can be more unluckier than me. Seriously. Any more unluckier, i'm going to get a car accident, or a aeroplane accident or whatever else that is even more horrific than that. First, i lost my thumbdrive, then i couldn't do well at my web multimedia video stuffs, then, i couldn't go to my class karaoke outings which reallybothers me (because my dad doesn't allow me to go out so late at nite.), and then, on my birthday celebration, some of my friends didn't turn up, in fact, most of them, and one of them have 2 go off early and the other wanna follow along because she felt awkward(i can understand that, i'm not blaming them nor going aginst them or anything.), then i got three nasty bruises on my arm which just refuse to go off, then i got sort of piss off at some of my classmates because of blah blah blah, den my mother forgot my birthday and i think my dad reminded her, den my bro. didn't wish me happy birthday, den MOST as in 80% of my friends didn't even drop me a msg wishing me happy birthday.. doris jie jie, my godbro, cindy, jessia, eric, xiaohsin etc did.. but.. well.. i dun wanna mention the other names here... dun wish 2 offend anyone out there.. but i really do expected the rest who didn't msg mi 2 msg mi. seriously. ok. i do expect doris jie jie etc to msg mi, and i'm really happy, i swear, i'm SO SO SO SO happy. But when i waited till noon, and i realized no other msges are coming, slowly, my mood just dropped... i expected my classmates2 wish me happy birthday, i expected my bro.. i expected.. nvm.. no names.. I quarrelled wif my mom... tell me.. who else can be more unfortunate than me at this point of time. When the day which i yearn for had come but ended up in tears.... And my classmates.. i dunno how much i mean to them. i seriously grateful and i appreciate it whensome of them turned up for my birthday celebration while the others who promised to come didn't. But..at some point of time.. i seriously dunno how much i mean to them.. one of them mentioned, "you are small but yet a important person in class" is that really so? then why isn't i invited to any of the lunch outings? i felt so left out.. God.. i could have just cry in class. i really almost did. When willie asked me why didn't i go out with them for lunch, i felt like hugging someone 2 cry on. Anything. pillar, whatever. i blurted out.. "they didn't asked me to." Willie said, "no lah. cannot be." i wish that what he said was true too. But.. no... they didn't even LOOK AT ME. It's not the first time anyway... each time they laughed.. they talked.. they discussed.. they went out without me.. i felt like digging a hole in the corner of the classroom and hide.. i dunno how 2 react.. some times i tried 2 join their conversation.. i did.. i laugh... but i realized how fake all those laughter was. It was so farking fake.. my laughter. I wanted 2 cry deep inside. i dun belong there. Mega told me, "hey, we are going 2 another karaoke outing, u wanna come?"i got so depress that day, i told her, "no. i dun belong there." ... it's true. This sentence comes out from deep within my heart. I don't belong to that class.. the only thing i could do is stay in class and do powerpoint slides. That's all i can do. That is part of the reason why i kept doing powerpoint slides everyday because i wanna hide myself away from their conversation. To concentrate on something else. That was when.. i felt everyone in class are pretty pretentious. I know, i made it so general, but i just couldn't help it... i swear... i tried 2 console myself... but i knowi'm not going to make it this way. some of them scold me stupid... ya ya.. nevermind.. because they didn't know since little, i hate ppl calling me names, like stupid. I hate it. One of them even insulted my figure.. yea.. big deal.. i know.. right.. but i'm a girl, hello... i've feelings.. i'm farking sensitive.. i can pretend outside, "oh~! it's ok!" but I KNOW IT ISN'T OK! i cried. i got so hurt.. i cried.. i dunno what else 2 do.. fark.. just screw me off my life.
Name:Lau Li Li
Age:18+
Sex:Female
Schools:Fuhua Pri., Keming Pri.,Zhenghua Sec., Republic Polytechnic
Work:Part-Time Modelling & Actress, Tutor
Wants:Pursue my studies on Law and if possible, Full-time for my Part-time works 1.Coconut juice *i simply can't do without it* 2.Greentea POLKA *The Alternate* 3.Chrysanthemum *The Second Alternate* 4.Instant noodles *The unresistable* 5.Beach *The Quiet Corner* 6.IT Security Management & Networking *Pls grant mi As* --> MicroEconomics *Pls grant mi MORE As* 7.Sammi Chueng, Yang Qian Hua, Zhou Xing Chi, Daniel Wu, She Shi Man *The Must WATCH movies* 8.Home-Cooked Food *Foods which i'll nv get bored of* 9.'Can you keep a secret?', 'The Make Up Girl', 'The Undomestic Goddess', 'The Shopaholic' *Books i can't do without* 10.Reality Shows *The only times which i can see ppl make a fool out of themselves other than myself.* 1.My Family *The Never Ending Support* 2.My Buddies & Friends *The Never Ending Laughters* 3.My Hubby *The Never Ending Love,Care and quarrels* 4.Music *My Life* 5.Acting *Pastime* 6.Being Crazy *The only times which i am not angry* 7.Typing *The only thing i am fast in* 8.Singing *The only time your voice is louder than your parents's 9.Movies *Watch ppl nag,quarrel,trick etc at other ppl for once rather than i'm the victim every other times* 10.Sleeping *The only time i can rest* 1.Angry ppl 2.Cruel ppl 3.Temperamental ppl 4.Stubborn ppl 5.Hypocrites 6.Attitude ppl 7.Tiko ppl 8.Bossy ppl 9.Lazy ppl 10.Papaya! 11.Backstabbers 1.Get As for results 2.Happy And Peaceful world 3.Friends to be happy 4.Happy Family 5.Happy Me 6.Happy Facilitators so i'll have good daily grades 7.Happy Hubby 8.Good establish career 9.Good future 10.Great Life
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