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2005-12-30 depress. i wanan kill myself>I'm breaking down, bloggy. i'm seriously breaking down. i really feel like giving up my life and dreams and hopes and goals and everything. i dun have motivation to do anything anymore.
once again, i am at home alone... once again, i feel so depress and alone once again, i feel like killing myself... why of 12 times i slit my wrist from secondary sch, i haven't die!!
Really thankful, jie. u are not being a nuisance at all. I really appreciate everything u had done for me. ^^
i really feel like shutting myself away from this world.
being put aeroplane again by my fren.. i tot she had changed but.. argh... whatever. i dunno.
I feel so bad.. i feel so guilty.. i feel like i'm de devil. i made my godbro and his gf quarrel. :( i almost wanna break down in front of him just now. I was late and made him late from meeting his gf. and his gf was like so angry lohs... i really dun mean it de... :( sorry, kor kor.. i know i'm very bad... hais...
seems like every unhappiness starts wif mi..
i feel like the black sheep among the white ones
i feel like i'm de evil one in this whole reality movie
i'm the one who start everything, bloggy. If heaven wanna take anyone away from the world, i pray that he take me away before i cause anything bad to happen again.
I feel so guilty of EVERYTHING. i dunno what to think anymore. i'll just starve myself to death.
bloggy, why dun u tell mi what to do? y can't u tok! ARGH! i'm going INSANE! I just wanna tear myself apart! i dun look forward to ANYTHING anymore!
it's so cold and dark inside this room now... matches my mood anyway..
dad is out wif brother. mom is working. auntie is not in singapore. hais.. auntie ar auntie.. y u have to get married. haha~ kidding lahs ok.
and YOU, better stop giving me that attitude ok. so WHAT if u had moved on. if u had really moved on, I DARE YOU to delete your BLOG, delete off ALL my testi, delete off ALL my emails, give me back ALL MY stuffs and throw away BOTH RINGS wif your OWN bare hands and throw away our PHOTOS TOO! EVERY SINGLE PHOTO!
if you had moved on, STOP FARKING make mi stand still can. u are making mi miserable. u are making mi upset at myself. u are making me ANGRY at myself. u are making my life MISERABLE!
jiejie in msn: gimme a break ` says: mei, hes happy w/o u
ARGH! it's stabbing my heart!!! i know it's de truth but it is killing ME!
i am happy for him, really. i truly am.
but... why.. why though he had moved on, he kept making mi stay still in this path! WHY!
~LiLi~
Name:Lau Li Li
Age:18+
Sex:Female
Schools:Fuhua Pri., Keming Pri.,Zhenghua Sec., Republic Polytechnic
Work:Part-Time Modelling & Actress, Tutor
Wants:Pursue my studies on Law and if possible, Full-time for my Part-time works
~Her Favorites~
1.Coconut juice *i simply can't do without it*
2.Greentea POLKA *The Alternate*
3.Chrysanthemum *The Second Alternate*
4.Instant noodles *The unresistable*
5.Beach *The Quiet Corner*
6.IT Security Management & Networking *Pls grant mi As*
--> MicroEconomics *Pls grant mi MORE As*
7.Sammi Chueng, Yang Qian Hua, Zhou Xing Chi, Daniel Wu, She Shi Man *The Must WATCH movies*
8.Home-Cooked Food *Foods which i'll nv get bored of*
9.'Can you keep a secret?', 'The Make Up Girl', 'The Undomestic Goddess', 'The Shopaholic' *Books i can't do without*
10.Reality Shows *The only times which i can see ppl make a fool out of themselves other than myself.*
~Loves~
1.My Family *The Never Ending Support*
2.My Buddies & Friends *The Never Ending Laughters*
3.My Hubby *The Never Ending Love,Care and quarrels*
4.Music *My Life*
5.Acting *Pastime*
6.Being Crazy *The only times which i am not angry*
7.Typing *The only thing i am fast in*
8.Singing *The only time your voice is louder than your parents's
9.Movies *Watch ppl nag,quarrel,trick etc at other ppl for once rather than i'm the victim every other times*
10.Sleeping *The only time i can rest*
~Loathes~
1.Angry ppl
2.Cruel ppl
3.Temperamental ppl
4.Stubborn ppl
5.Hypocrites
6.Attitude ppl
7.Tiko ppl
8.Bossy ppl
9.Lazy ppl
10.Papaya!
11.Backstabbers
~WishList~
1.Get As for results
2.Happy And Peaceful world
3.Friends to be happy
4.Happy Family
5.Happy Me
6.Happy Facilitators so i'll have good daily grades
7.Happy Hubby
8.Good establish career
9.Good future
10.Great Life
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