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2005-12-25 ouch.>I simply hate guys 2 de core. If it isn't for the law, i'd kill them.
Feel so damn suay recently. In fact, since the BEGINNING of the year.
argh! first friends stuff, den family stuffs, den aaaahhh!
Last yr was so wonderful. I was happy. In fact, i have friends, i had a loving boyfriend, a warm family, what more can i ask?
This yr, everything went downhill. Seems like lotsa ppl begin slipping away from me, like radz. Hey, radz, i'm seriously seriously seriously am sorry abt this. U shd have msged and asked me. Whatever that person told u might have maybe said it wrongly or something. If it's abt not inviting u, i couldn't invite u becos i couldn't get hold of u to settle the food. I wanted to invite irman too but the food issue too. I did ask audrey abt the food becos u didn't reply my messages. But audrey asked me to ask u and irman. -.-" In fact, it's been a long long long time since u replied me. I didn't know what's wrong either becos i dun recall doing anything behind ur back or talking bad abt u at all. The only bad thing i said was, "that radz forever dun wanna reply my msg. i'm gonna chop her into pieces." that's all. Pls msg mi if u still feel uncomfortable abt what that person said that hurt u. U shd have confirm wif mi whether what that person have said is true. maybe u misinterprete it somehow. I've been ur fren for so long, i would not do anything that will intentionally hurt u.
I guess won't go steady anymore. I one day dun quarrel wif guys like will die like that. ARGH!
Yesterday, when abt to board the mrt, a stupid black woman was actually insulting mi becos i was actually letting ppl to get out of the train first. She said, "wait for ppl to get out, den before we can get in, the train go already." WAH KAO! like purposely say for mi to listen one. eh, woman, i know you fat lah, den u rush in urself lah! kao... it's my legs and my brains and my heart, i like to give ppl come out first can. u have a problem!?!?
Nearly tried to cried in the mrt anyway... becos wee keat actually msged me blah blah blah, and one of the sentence is , "it is the fact that you are nt close wif pei fen and the rest what." i dunno.. suddenly realise... i am not close to anyone at all. feel so condemned...
Why?! why everybody is moving on while i'm still standing still? I dun even know what are friends for.. i dun even know what is love.. i dunno anything! i've no feelings anymore.
Wah, i was almost trampled to death in orchard yesterday. My dad and mom were wif mi. Thank God, for the first time then, my dad saved me from being trampled to death. It's so damn crowded tt there's simply no room for walking. We ended up pushing and pushing. And i finally get the feeling of being trap in between sandwiches. I seriously almost suffocate to death loh. i'm not bluffing u. i had to tiptoe to breathe. this man, damn farking tiko loh. ya lah, it is crowded. U know what he did? He actually pulled my dad's sleeves. and i was behind my dad. So his arm was actually touching my upper part of the body. ( u shd know where). and is not only touching loh. he even PUSHED it loh!!! wah lao! not flat enuff ar, still keep pushing. He know he actually touched it but he still leave his arms there, continue holding onto my dad's sleeves. Though i do not know why my dad has no feelings. KAO! SO DAMN TIKO!
I feel so so so so vulnerable that i do not wish to be close to anyone or tell anyone anything.
i do not even wanna have a bf. What for is a bf? guys are all fan jian. Tiko perverts.
oh ya, i actually went orchard the other day to find my mother. Before alighting the bus, lilin spotted me! ohhh! Hahaha, guess what... her lappie is back in fujitsu service centre ONCE again. But she was so delighted she didn't have to go back school to format everything becos everyhing was still intact. (well, i was secretly happy becos she could actually accompany me). We did a lot of talking and stuffs and got a long well as usual! I saw jia wei and de rest wif my mom. hahaha~ jia wei's hair was dyed. And the rest of them said that i had grown prettier AND skinnier... i think i'm like 34 kg already.
Bloggy... i dunno why... now, not only i hate guys.. i hate HUMANS! ... shit...
how how how how how how how.
i'm not into the hating state now.. but it is increasing...
I couldn't even control myself when i wanted 2 cry... i've like cried everyday for NOTHING! YES! NOTHING! i dunno what was i crying abt. my brain told me, "what de hell? there's nothing to cry!" but my eyes just keep pouring tears. WHY WHY WHY!
dun bother abt me.. i'm just some insane person acting like an idiot and bitch. eh. no. i'm sorry. It is "i'm just some insane person BEING an idiot and a bitch."
gotta go a christmas party wif xin soon... kao... and it's like.. 6.18am in the morning and i had to meet her 715 in gombak. wah... buay tahan. eyelids closing soon.
i realized how limited my frens are.. inf act.. those who are truly close to me is zero.
~LiLi~
Name:Lau Li Li
Age:18+
Sex:Female
Schools:Fuhua Pri., Keming Pri.,Zhenghua Sec., Republic Polytechnic
Work:Part-Time Modelling & Actress, Tutor
Wants:Pursue my studies on Law and if possible, Full-time for my Part-time works
~Her Favorites~
1.Coconut juice *i simply can't do without it*
2.Greentea POLKA *The Alternate*
3.Chrysanthemum *The Second Alternate*
4.Instant noodles *The unresistable*
5.Beach *The Quiet Corner*
6.IT Security Management & Networking *Pls grant mi As*
--> MicroEconomics *Pls grant mi MORE As*
7.Sammi Chueng, Yang Qian Hua, Zhou Xing Chi, Daniel Wu, She Shi Man *The Must WATCH movies*
8.Home-Cooked Food *Foods which i'll nv get bored of*
9.'Can you keep a secret?', 'The Make Up Girl', 'The Undomestic Goddess', 'The Shopaholic' *Books i can't do without*
10.Reality Shows *The only times which i can see ppl make a fool out of themselves other than myself.*
~Loves~
1.My Family *The Never Ending Support*
2.My Buddies & Friends *The Never Ending Laughters*
3.My Hubby *The Never Ending Love,Care and quarrels*
4.Music *My Life*
5.Acting *Pastime*
6.Being Crazy *The only times which i am not angry*
7.Typing *The only thing i am fast in*
8.Singing *The only time your voice is louder than your parents's
9.Movies *Watch ppl nag,quarrel,trick etc at other ppl for once rather than i'm the victim every other times*
10.Sleeping *The only time i can rest*
~Loathes~
1.Angry ppl
2.Cruel ppl
3.Temperamental ppl
4.Stubborn ppl
5.Hypocrites
6.Attitude ppl
7.Tiko ppl
8.Bossy ppl
9.Lazy ppl
10.Papaya!
11.Backstabbers
~WishList~
1.Get As for results
2.Happy And Peaceful world
3.Friends to be happy
4.Happy Family
5.Happy Me
6.Happy Facilitators so i'll have good daily grades
7.Happy Hubby
8.Good establish career
9.Good future
10.Great Life
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